We are doing free writing for five minutes but all I have are drawing pens, I am not sure how vulnerable I feel and maybe this means I need to go to classes more or figure out a medium of which I can interrogate myself genuinely but I also feel unartistic and strange out of body quite uncomfy in my own skin. Maybe I don’t feel too awful but I think this might not be right for me right now or it could be perfect but I can’t be sure either way to be honest. Not sure how I feel, existential loss and worry that my life will be over someday is terrifying.
Following the Saturday one minute check-in, the group discussed themes and questions that had emerged out of the five day workshop. Here are some of them…
Being here is like falling in love, spiritually and emotionally
Disabled people have a right to BE disabled
Being ‘given permission’ by the mainstream to perform
People say, ‘that’s so great…for a deaf person’
Sharing the space with someone else helps me stay working
I need to look after myself a little more
Who has the power?
Greedy for more time
Who is doing the work? Who makes the performance?
Sometimes how you feel is reflected in the people around you
Am I genuine in answering questions?